Atelophobia. Uncle Google gave me this word :)
The fear of imperfection, of not being enough. It really surprised me how can this kind of word exist in this world.
Some people or most of them thinks that this 'atelophobia' thing is an advantage, but to me its not. Totally not! Because its really hard when you have to re-do everything for a few times, to correct something that is not perfect in your eyes. Its tiring. And becomes even more tiring when people keep asking you to be yourself, and then they judge you. Especially when someone say something like this "Perfectionist is damn annoying. Just be cool". Helloooo? I am being myself, okay! Perfectionist is not an act, its a personality. Those freaks are just idiots, they don't even know how to differentiate an act and a personality because it never happen them.
I strongly believe in the phrase 'Practice makes perfect'. But one day, someone says to me, "practice makes perfect but nobody's perfect." That 6 words confused me. Made me think for a few days. And I realize that I should change. At least a try, right? But its really hard. It going to take a very long time. I hope I can find someone that can accept me being a perfectionist and teach me how to be an imperfectionist type of person. :)
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