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2014 is approaching.

Alhamdulillah, Im still breathing.

Too many things to regret

too much tears.

But somehow I survived :)

Like every person,

In 2014, I want..

to smile more often,

to make more mistakes,

to do everything sincerely,

to learn to listen,

to spread love,

to lose some weight,

and as always, to be a better muslimah.

Ya Allah, please give me lots of surprise this year.

2014, dont ruin me.

Well hello there! 

Didnt see you for a long time I think....

Sorry, something wrong with blogger and I

 cant post any single thing.

 Im at setia alam...

My favourite uncle got cancer and checked in into UMMC.

Well its kind of hard for me to hide that tears for

nearly 1 hour but what to do..

At least I can see he smile.

Few days back I went to visit my sister. Ahh,

its so lonely here without her.

Idk why but its just very very lonely without my love ones,

without my friends aspecially.

Miss them the most!

With all the problems that I have.

I miss being that little kid.

That never care about this big world.

That always get whatever she wants.

That always have real smile.

That never jealous of anyone.

That do whatever she want.

That dont know many feelings. Yet.

That loved by the surroundings.

That dont have any homeworks.

That dont have any problems to think of.

That does nothing but only eat.pray.love.andplay

That...

That just be a happy little girl.

I just wish that I have someone that can cuddle me up

and wipe my tears away.

Well december ruined me eventhough its just getting started.

Hope that my favourite january can give me 

some blast and lotsa surprise! :D

Result mehh

Woot woot.

Talked about result yesterday and...

Miracle happend!

Found this in the mailbox this morning and I get to read it on my own

before my dad does. What a lucky day! :)

2A+ 5A 2A- 4B

Pointer is not as good as I hope..

But whatever, going to hari anugerah!

[Penghormatan Pengetua]

Yay..say kimchi!

Mummy Mazliana gave all four marks. Hukhuk~

ibu

Just for sharing.
Bile nak kawin ni haha..

Somebody said it takes about six weeks to get back to normal after you've had a baby... that somebody doesn't know that once you're a mother, "normal" is history.

Somebody said you learn how to be a mother by instinct... that somebody never took a three-year-old shopping.

Somebody said being a mother is boring... that somebody never rode in a car driven by a teenager with a driver's permit.

Somebody said if you're a "good" mother, your child will "turn out good"... that somebody thinks a child comes with directions and a guarantee.

Somebody said "good" mothers never raise their voices... that somebody never came out the back door just in time to see her child hit a golf ball through the neighbor's kitchen window.

Somebody said you don't need an education to be a mother... that somebody never helped a fourth grader with his math.

Somebody said you can't love the fifth child as much as you love the first... that somebody doesn't have five children.

Somebody said a mother can find all the answers to her child-rearing questions in the books... that somebody never had a child stuff beans up his nose or in his ears.

Somebody said the hardest part of being a mother is labor and delivery... that somebody never watched her "baby" get on the bus for the first day of kindergarten... or on a plane headed for military "boot camp."

Somebody said a mother can do her job with her eyes closed and one hand tied behind her back... that somebody never organized seven giggling Brownies to sell cookies.

Somebody said a mother can stop worrying after her child gets married... that somebody doesn't know that marriage adds a new son or daughter-in-law to a mother's heartstrings.

Somebody said a mother's job is done when her last child leaves home... that somebody never had grandchildren.

Somebody said your mother knows you love her, so you don't need to tell her... that somebody isn't a mother.

Petaa

Too much peta. Tired. Going crazy.

Eventually, boredom strikes when Im doing this whole thing.

And yeah, ended up messing with things ;D

Penunggang Kuda :)

Go through all the pictures that we took one week before holiday

and found this photo.

Im the brave knight.

Mana Cinta?

Well today, I read all the message between me my friends.

I miss them.

And suddenly I thought of a question that always in my mind which a friend of mine, 

a close one who asked me a few years ago.

"Kenapa kadang-kadang perasaan cinta tu susah sangat nak datang?

Walau sekuat mana pun kita paksa tapi cinta tak pernah muncul.

Walau orang yang kita cuba untuk cinta tu kawan kita sendiri?"

Well truthfully I also never thought of that, cause it never happens to me.

My love are never forced.

So I didnt answer the question. I just said 

"Entah. Takdir kott."

And then I tried asking other people cause it bothers me.

But I failed, well everyone doesnt know the answer.

Until one day, this very special friend told me a story.

A very beautiful one, called

Mana Cinta?

Cikgu: Rindu?

Rindu: Hadir cikgu.

Cikgu: Benci?

Benci: Saya cikgu!

Cikgu: Kasih?

Rindu: Tak hadir cikgu.

Cikgu: Sayang?

Benci: Sakit cikgu.

Cikgu: Mana cinta?

Benci: Balik cikgu.

Cikgu: Kenapa?

Well why do you think Cinta balik?

Rindu dan Benci: Sebab Cinta tak akan hadir tanpa Kasih dan Sayang :)

Well, nowdays give me a lot scars. People always hurt me.

But I tried to be strong and always learn how to love them.

Because every person that came into my life have their own reason.

Even you, the one that reading this also have one. :)

Truth or dare are your choice,

be prepare and feel my voice.

#I know the truth that I will hurt every time I did that but I dare myself to do it

and ended up feeling stupid.
My mistake dear. No worries. 

She Is 5cm Shorter Than Me ;)

So this thing is actually my sister's blog.

I found it when I was playing Subway Surf in her new Samsung Grand.

Yup, totally jealous!

But thats not the topic,

its about her blog.

First, I was amazed by her blog.

But then I found this one article that touches my heart.

I screen captured it secretly to put it in my blog.

Well, I know that she always jealous of me but she didnt know I am too.

Mom and dad love her more than I even if they deny it I know they are lying.

Sometimes Im very jealous with their bond cause they look very close,

and Im not so I look and feel like a stranger.

She gets almost everything she wants,

well at least mom and dad will consider all her wishes

while I also get everything that I want but I have to work hard.

I have to find my money to buy everything I want.

Its all my own effort. Everything comes from me.

She listen to mom and dad very well.

And that is one thing that I dont know why but sometimes its hard for me to do it.

Shes smart. Everything that she make is beautiful yet she is still humble.

She is very kind.

I adore her. Very much.

By the way, I havent found her blog yet,

namely F. H.A.P.E.
I hope I will find it one day.

To my beloved kakak,

If you are meant to read this,

I always proud of you and nothing going to change that.

Thank you for always be with me and accept all my flaws.

No sorry are needed.

I love you and I will always will. :)

                                            Sincerely, Me

A glimpse of my very own precious memories :)

Never Never Land

So come with me,

where dreams are born,

and time is never planned.

Just think of happy things,

and your heart will fly on wings

forever, in Never Never Land :)

Whats Love?

In Math :

A problem.

In History :

A War.

In Chemistry :

A Reaction.

In Art :

A Heart.

In Me..

You :)

Ya Allah,

Ajar aku untuk ikhlas dalam semua amalan,

Walaupun hanya dalam sebuah senyuman.

Ajar aku untuk terus istiqamah,

Walau amalan hanya sebesar zarah.

Ajar aku untuk sentiasa mengingatiMu,

Dalam setiap suka duka yang ku temu.

Ajar aku untuk terus berusaha,

Walaupun mereka tahu ku tak mampu.

Ajar aku untuk terus tabah,

Tika dunia memberikanku resah.

Terima Kasih Allah, 

atas kebahagian ini..

Walau ku tahu, ia mungkin pergi suatu hari nanti.

Pointer?

Met my sister at our kampung. I asked her about her pointer.
Baru nak action cakap my results is 3.75 above.. How unfortunately,

she answered, "I got 4flat." What in the world?

But yes, theres no doubt she is smart.

Haahhh, Im dying to get that in my exams! :(
But whatever, congratulations sis!
I just proud of you! ;)

Marriage Is A School

Found this article and it inspires me a lot! :)

Marriage is a school where you get the certificate before you start. 

A school where you will never graduate. 

A school without a break or a free period. 

A school where no one is allowed to drop out. 

A school which you will have to attend every day of your life. 

A school where there is no sick leave or holidays. 

A school founded by the Almighty:

1. On the foundation of love, 

2. The walls made of trust,

3. The door made of acceptance, 

4. The windows made of understanding. 

5. The furniture made of blessings. 

6. The roof made of faith. 

Before you forget, you are just a student not the principal. The Almighty is the principal.

Even at times of a storm, don’t be unwise and run outside.

Remember this school is the safest place to be. 

Never go to sleep before completing your assignments for the day. 

Never forget the C-word, communicate, communicate, communicate with your classmate and with the Principal.

If you find something in your classmate (spouse) that you do not appreciate, remember your classmate is also just a student not a graduate. The Almighty is not finished with him/her yet, so take it as a challenge and work on it together. 

Do not forget to study, study, study the Noble Book (the main textbook in this school). 

Start each day with a sacred assembly and end it the same way.

Sometimes you will feel like not attending class, yet you have to.

When tempted to quit find the courage and continue. 

Some tests and exams may be tough but remember the Principal knows how much you can bear. 

Still, it is one of the best schools on earth; joy, peace and happiness accompany each lesson of the day. 

Different subjects are offered in this school, yet love is the major subject. 

After all the years of being theoretical about it, now you have a chance to practice it. 

To be loved is a good thing, but to love is the greatest privilege of them all. 

Marriage is a place of love, so love your spouse but remember: “This class doesn’t involve a person who is not permitted into it”! If you invite your mother or father or your friends to this class,   or anyone who is not allowed to be there, you will fail the exam. 

It is you who should attend and it is you who will pass. 

Its your choice today:"build it or break it". 

Atelophobia. Uncle Google gave me this word :)
The fear of imperfection, of not being enough. It really surprised me how can this kind of word exist in this world.
Some people or most of them thinks that this 'atelophobia' thing is an advantage, but to me its not. Totally not! Because its really hard when you have to re-do everything for a few times, to correct something that is not perfect in your eyes. Its tiring. And becomes even more tiring when people keep asking you to be yourself, and then they judge you. Especially when someone say something like this "Perfectionist is damn annoying. Just be cool". Helloooo? I am being myself, okay! Perfectionist is not an act, its a personality. Those freaks are just idiots, they don't even know how to differentiate an act and a personality because it never happen them.
I strongly believe in the phrase 'Practice makes perfect'. But one day, someone says to me, "practice makes perfect but nobody's perfect." That 6 words confused me. Made me think for a few days. And I realize that I should change. At least a try, right? But its really hard. It going to take a very long time. I hope I can find someone that can accept me being a perfectionist and teach me how to be an imperfectionist  type of person. :)

A fresh start with a new blog. Already did thousands but none of them was a success. This time Im going to make it happen ! :)
#Teachmehowtowriteadiary